I've decided to add a new item to the list:
27. Challenge myself.
Today, I pushed myself a bit harder than I have been on the treadmill (17), and I feel good because of it. Actually, I feel tired because of it. But I also feel good, accomplished. It's silly how the littlest things can sometimes seem like accomplishments: I ran an extra half mile today, I finished putting all my cds into books (a 9am to 4pm with a half-hour break accomplishment), and I haven't had a life-interrupting headache in over a week now. While these feats are small, they feel like something. Today, they feel like something.
I liken the feeling to that of putting together a jigsaw puzzle. When I put together a puzzle, I'm proud - "You see that picture? I'm responsible for that. Without me it would just be a thousand random pieces stuffed into a box. I made it into a picture." - even though in the grand scheme of things I realize I've just spent hours of my life rearranging little bits of cardboard to make a picture that I've already seen.
Now back to the addition to the list. I think I have a tendency to settle into doing things at a level that I'm good at or comfortable with. For whatever reason, I haven't really been pushing myself to that next level. So, that's my new goal. To raise the bar. To fall on my ass. To succeed. To accomplish.
Most of today was spent on the cd project, but I did get to do some yogalates (10, 13, 16, 17), and an issue of McSweeney's came in the mail. So I'm going to go read some of that as soon as I'm finished here, see what kind of stories are getting published these days.
I feel as though I'm forgetting to mention something I did toward the list today. But it's not coming.
I'm grateful for Case Logic cd storage books and a sudden lack of clutter (20).
1 comment:
Right on man! It's been my belief for a long time now, that you can do almost anything depending on how hard you work toward that something. I think you're on the right track by pushing yourself a little harder. Just don't get too extravagant with your challenges. If you set a goal that's too lofty and you have a hard time achieving it, you can get depressed and give up.
I think you've made great progress with your list so far. That you've stuck with it thus far is fantastic. Keep it up!
Did you leave space in your CD storage books for new CDs? I'm still in the dark ages with my jewel cases.
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